Tuesday, 28 August 2012

Well, hello again!

It's been a long time since I posted.... I guess when I originally started this blog I was in a bad place emotionally with our decision not to have any more children... I wanted an outlet to process those emotions and vent about what it looked liked through our eyes... But after only a few posts, I realised I didn't want to be that person... I was sick of thinking about not having another baby everyday, getting teary whenever I heard of a pregnancy, or tried to celebrate with friends over their newborns...

So I took a step back... I reassessed my life and the choice we had made... I decided that I love my life... I love my one, precious little human and I'm excited about the life that we are going to be able to give her...

It doesn't mean it doesn't still hurt... Everyday... I still see a big pregnant belly and wish it was me growing that tiny person... I still hold my friends newborns and get tears in my eyes thinking about how I wont get to hold my own newborn again, but I'm just done feeling consumed by it...

Instead, I want this blog to be a celebration of the only child... The 3 person family... I have to, because my life isn't going to be any different, no matter how hard I try to rationalise having another baby in my head!  I will make the most of my Onederful life, and experience great things... Just me and my husband and my daughter... And we will be just fine...